I use to do a day of "Ramblings" where I just wrote off the top of my head. I think I will go back to that. Mondays I use to do "Monday's Menu" so I think I will return to that. I seem to get a lot of hits on my Friday Fashions, SO maybe I should go back to that. I feel when I have a plan I can be more creative.
It seems I have a plan of action now lets see if I can keep it going. That will be the challenge. I'm really not any sort of fashion expert, so basically I'll be winging that. I still want to keep some sort of content that's my own to my blog, so I think I'll do some throwbacks. I really do like sharing my life from back in the day. I hope I have maybe inspired or at least given some advice to those who may be reading my blog and living in a similar situation.
You all know I love my dogs, I absolutely love including them in my writings. They are so important in my life. I might go back to Dog Dayz Saturdayz...
I feel like I should explain why I blog its been awhile since I've discussed that.
I may have been a bit shy in previous years while blogging, you know I don't want to "toot my own horn" per say.
But I've grown a nice air of confidence and I'm not going to hide the fact that I have a story to share.
Most of you may know that I am working on writing a book, I can't lie about this...it is hard for me to share some aspects of my life. I guess maybe I'm still coming to terms with some of it.
I find blogging is helping me find my words. I am learning my own style of writing, and I am taking my time while doing it.
I am the mother of a special needs child. I am a survivor of a catastrophic life event, and I am much stronger than I ever thought I could possibly be. I have seen many doctor's, therapists, counsellors, psychologists and many other health care providers who specialize in Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I have come out the other side of hell with a continued growth for life, happiness, peace and love.
There could have been any time in my life where I could have stayed down the path of darkness. Having my children and husband by my side every day gave me a reason to persevere (To persist in anything undertaken; maintain a purpose in spite of difficult, obstacles or discouragement, continued steadfast.)
I was not alone, and I was not the only one suffering. Paul and both kids had moments, weeks, months and even years of uneasiness. Each one of us suffering from some model of affliction.
But we made it and as we grow older in our family of four I see us taking shape. Today I was speaking to someone about my kids going off to Montreal together and how Braden treated Kailey with this trip. She commented on how wonderful that is especially at their ages, Lisa had said 'You and your husband must have done a great job".
I did agree with her, I am so proud of my kids and the relationship they have. I love how as they become adults they become friends. I will continue to nurture that, they need one another.
I also wanted Lisa to know that their relationship has not always been perfect or for that matter easy. Both had moments of resentment in their childhood, and during all those stages Paul and I took action to help both of them deal with their feelings. Let me tell you, we were very busy. We certainly didn't take the easy way out with raising these two.
Braden struggled with each milestone Kailey reached, walking, running, skating, driving...etc etc it goes on and on.
Kailey naturally suffered much grief when Braden received any special treatment from people in public. Do you know, there were moments in Braden's childhood that people would stop us in the mall and literally hand Braden money...just for being in a wheelchair! HA.
I'd then have this blue eyed little girl looking at me wondering where her money was, why didn't that old man give me 5.00 dollars to buy a treat.
I'm not kidding when I say it happened, and frequently. We had a rule, he had to share the money with Kailey. Typically they'd get a treat, OR I would turn around and give the same amount to Kail. Eventually we would have him put it in a charity box, he didn't need the money there was always someone worse off than him.
I could go on and on, stories filled with parenting challenges. We had to brainstorm a lot. It wasn't easy and it was a lot of work. We never took anything related to their feelings or emotions lightly, we never brushed anything off. I was always aware of acknowledging how they were feeling, and we did our best to come up with a solution.
I remember there came a short moment in time when Kailey couldn't understand that Braden was older than her. She was very young at the time but because he couldn't walk she thought of him as a baby. It took some thought on how to keep their ages in check, lots of talking and discussing.
So my friends, the reason I blog is because I do eventually want to tell my story. I do not think I am an expert or a therapist, but I do have a lot of knowledge and life experience that I want to share.
Even after all the sh*t we have been through, I still absolutely, without a doubt love my life. I wake up everyday and choose to be happy, I want to share that~
Well my lovelies, Until tomorrow goodnight and god bless~ xo
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