Monday, January 4, 2010

Big decision


Tonight I went to see a movie with a good friend. We decided to see the movie It's Complicated starring Meryl Streep and Alec Baldwin. You know usually I find chick flicks or romantic comedies have the same movie predicted ending that finds you leaving the movie theatre feeling warm and fuzzy. Tonights movie did of course have a feeling of warmth, but not the same predicted warmth. It was about a couple who were married for many, many years..and raised 3 children together for most of those years. Over time they grew apart, became different people and one thing led to another the marriage was neglected and the husband (Alec Baldwin) goes outside of the marriage and has an affair. As the movie goes the ex couple co-parent their 3 young adult children and tolerate one another through 10 years of divorce. The ex husband eventually finds himself in love with his ex wife (Meryl Streep) and decideds to act on his feelings..finding the two of them having an affair together.
The ex-couple start spending time together, rekindling a romance of convienence. Naturally you see this new spark between them, and they have a few family moments all together with their children and the father feels he has stepped back into thier happy family. He is convinced they are meant to be together after 10 years of divorce. You are led to believe that there just might be hope for these two and how romantic it would be for the family to be put back together..because its just that easy! Initially I think we are all hopeless romantics and optimistic love sick movie goers..I truely felt that this couple would get back together and the movie would be done with everyone feeling "thats the way it should be". Surprisingly however, they did not get back together and any hopes of a future for them were shot down by the mom, who thankfully realized it would never be a happy ending if they got back together. Realistically, she avoided all the things that caused the divorce in the first place. It was nice to leave a movie where the ending was realistic, there was a part of me hoping for the family to get back together mostly for the childrens sake...but just because they can't love their children under the same roof, doesn't mean they can't love them even stronger under seperate roofs. The ending was happy, and i did leave with a warm fuzzy feeling! I am fortuante and extremely happy that we can love our children under the same roof!
Well, I can finally write about the one thing hanging over my head. I have come to decision, not an easy one..but a needed one. I am going to quit my job...not such an easy thing to say or admit, but I need to do it. There are many reasons why I am going to leave the hospital, the main reason being the medical issues that we are going to have to tackle this coming year. There are going to be some major medical decisions for Braden. Another reason is the 12 hour shifts, not a big fan of them! they are a killer on my back, and I find that being away from the family that long affects my parenting too much, especially since it takes 2 days to recover after a 12 hour shift. Unfortunately my job entitled me to be spread across much of the hospital..sometimes going into departments that I have had no training. Those shifts were very difficult and draining, I would have to get use to new co workers, new policies and procedures, new job techniques and new computer skills or different charting expectations. I will definately miss the maternity ward, it was my favorite, but I was never guareented to work there. There are many other reasons why I am choosing to leave my job, some are personal, due to my own life experiences in hospitals and some are emotional for the same reasons...some situations are just too close to home.
I will seek out a new adventure in this wonderful career. Something that I can enjoy and feel like I can give 100% of me, that is important because I would expect that for my own loved ones.
With that said, I am comfortable with my decision and I am looking forward to a new job...eventually!!

2 comments:

  1. Omg Chrissy. I started reading the beginning and I though that you were going to say you were getting a divorce. I was freaking out!!
    I have never worked a 12 hour shift, I probably never will, so I really can't see "I know how you feel." But I remember sometimes when you had to go to bed very early in the summer because you had work the next day, and from that I can say I don't think I would be able to ever do it.
    I hope you have a great week Chrissy!
    Love you all!

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  2. Hey, I know it was a tough decision for you, with medical and so many other reasons why you had to leave your job, I am very proud of what you have done, you have done a lot in such a short period of time! I will always stand behind you in everything you do and always be there for you no matter what. Love you!
    Candy

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