Change...

I'm seriously just sitting here ignoring all the wonderful things that are going through my head! Life is great...honestly, things are good...its just that so much is about to change. Its all exciting and amazing but reality is...our family will never be the same come September!
We have been approved to move to Ottawa for 3 months were Braden will undergo significant rehab and therapy. He will be participating in a VERY difficult, specialized exercise program that will focus directly on his SCI. He is pumped..and I am thankful. I have spent many many years fighting with this child to prarticipate in his physiotherapy..and finally 16 years later HE'S taking charge. So your probably wondering how are things never going to be the same? First off Braden will NOT be returning to highschool. Yep, he has decided to finish his last few courses online and possibly through nightschool...but one stipulation is he HAS to finish all his courses this school year. That's a big change...secondly after he's finished with that..he will be starting into his first year of college. It kinda hit me hard when a close friends daughter headed to Toronto last week and started her College years. Kailey goes into grade 10 this year but this time next year she will be in grade 11...after that there's only one year and then my baby girl will be off to university..*tear*. We've already gone over our educational funds and savings and started to prepare for both of them...*drops head* can you believe that? Its only a matter of a few years and both my children will be off to college or university. I am feeling much much better about Braden going off on his own if thats what he wants..I think since he stayed home alone for 2 weeks and survived impressed me greatly and has relaxed my anxieties about him taking over his own life. He will be just fine, there's no need to be as concerned! Basically its just weird...my son isn't quite finished his highschool years...however he has decided to try something different and finish his education through other means..and thats ok! He is determined, and clearly there is no choice in the matter...he HAS to finish. It's just different he won't be heading out the door every morning with his sister. Technically he won't be heading out this door at all this fall...he'll be in Ottawa!!

What's New?

Well there's lots new here! I feel like i will never get caught up in blog world. So much to share, so much to say...I don't even know where to start. I will have to go back to the very beginning of the summer and share the wonderful events of that. I also have to finish this darn 30 days of truth/questions. I will set one day aside a week, starting today and start blogging again. Hopefully i will get some encouragement and desire to get back to the thing that I do love...writing! Hope everyone has had a wonderful summer and things are falling into place for back to school. My daughter is off shopping in the States for a few days..hopefully she comes back with some good deals for back to school? Anyways...i'm outta here, lunch date with a friend!
Have a wonderful day friends and we will talk soon!
Much Love~

I'm still here...

Friends...I am still here! I haven't gone anywhere!! Well actually I have been away, enjoying summer and vacationing. Right now there seems to be ALOT going on. I don't have the patience to blog or the creative ability to write anything clever :(
its sad..i know! I do have so much to share and I promise to start up blogging again as soon as I am able! I don't want to make promises but it would be nice to get back on track tomorrow! I feel so overwhelemed right now. Just got home from holidays but seem to have so much planning to do for the fall. Oh well...what can I do? This is my life, I am however comtemplating "hibernating" for a little bit? Taking myself off the radar for a few weeks. You know, not answering the phone, staying off facebook, only answering important BBM messages? I don't know?? Of course there are a few people who I won't disregard, there's a handful that will always have access to me if they need me! I'm ALWAYS available to those I love and to those who need me right now! I am here...you know who you are!
Good night my friends...see you again real soon!

Post 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without

Here are a few things that I could easily live without...
~People who pretend to be someone or something that they are not.
~Ignorant people! People who are not open minded or closed off to new outlooks.
~People who judge
~Mosquito's
~People who harm pets
~Spiders
Oh there are just too many things that I could live without. I think the number one annoying thing to me is sarcasm! I hate it when people try to use sarcasm as a form of humour! Its pathetic and uninteresting...kinda lame and boring! Drives me crazy!!

Post 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it

My husband!
Honestly...I will say, I could not live without my husband and I know this because I did for 2 months. It was NOT a happy time in our life...we were both in a spot where we thought our marriage was over. The experience did change alot about who I was and who we were as a couple. Thankfully we pulled through that time and managed to get our lives and marriage back on track. Those two months I had alone was spent growing as a person, I learned ALOT about myself...it was then that I decided to go back to school to become a nurse. I realized that I needed to make myself happy and stop relying on someone else to do it!
There are always good and bad in situations like a temporary seperation. I know for me...I gained a new identity, I found myself again. Once we went back into our marriage I was a little different. We both were...in a good way!
I have been with Paul since I was 18 years old, we have survived so much together in our 22 years together. I'm not sure how much of it is that I couldn't live without Paul or more...I wouldn't live without Paul. He's all I know, he's really all I've ever had. Even during the hard times...we balance eachother, we know one another like no one else in our lives. We truly have become one through these years and I couldn't see myself growing old with anyone else. Our life together is a busy one, we have been incrediably un-selfish as a couple giving our children everything. We love our family and put them first all the time.
Know that the kids are growing and becoming young adults, we are finding our time together more intimate. At times we feel like we did back in our early 20's before we had kids. Its nice! It's so weird...we still look at eachother like we did back in the day..we still love our time together, still play together and love eachother passionately. From 1989 to 2011...its been a trip, but one thing remains the same! Its our "Loves"! We think back and talk about certain years we have had, certain times we've shared together and apart...its surreal sometimes, the life we've shared! One thing is certain...I wouldn't have wanted it to be with anyone else! It's our time know...our time to once again enjoy one another! It would be a shame to not embrace that!

Post 14 → A hero that has let you down.

There have been numerous people who have let me down in life. A hero?? Not sure I really have a "superhero" type person in my life. I mean...everyone is human and everyone makes mistakes. My brother is one who has let me down incrediably. He ha chosen a different life path that doesn't include our family and I think that has been the biggest let down in my life. He lives a life that we do not agree with, and if he were allowed to live his life his way and still be a part of ours...it would literally destroy us! We have tried many things to bring him back to us, to help him and guide him. Get him the help that he needs to fight the addictions he has. He just doesn't seem to think HE has a problem, and he also doesn't realize how much he has hurt our family in the process.
My brother was a person who stood by me during some of the most difficult times, he was a solid shoulder to lean on and he was always extremely protective of me. He was closest thing I had to a "hero"..he was so reliable. Unfortunately he let other things get the best of him, he changed...it's sad, and disappointing!
I miss him....ALOT!

Post 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.

U2 Hands down is the most important band in my life~
I have loved this band from way back...all the way back to 1984! Probably the number one song in my life is With or Without You!
I can't say for sure that this band pulled me through some hard times, because when it was rough...music was the last thing on my mind. I will say though that during times of breif periods of sadness in my life, even through arguments with friends, crushes that went no where or even problems in my marriage...U2 was the group that I would turn too! I raised my babies listening to them, they knew all the songs as infants and would sing along from the crib! I eventually had the chance to see U2 live in Toronto. My cousin works for RIM and he had 2 tickets for free. He let me have his and his wife took the other one! His wife happens to be my best friend and she happens to love U2 as well! We actually both grew up, many nights spent listening to U2 discussing boys,jobs and teenage girl things. It was a dream come true to see them~
A night to remember forever!!